a struggle

.by Dheycie Luna on Monday, July 12, 2010 at 9:28pm.

i cant sit here and say I'm independent when i live under my parents roof,
i cant lie and say its easy to be a full time worker and student when i stress at night to do homework,
i cant walk around like Ive let my past behind me, when at times my past is me joyful memories and makes me feel alive again.
i cant pretend like I'm always strong, when at night i feel so weak.
i cant lie and say Ive 'done this alone' because every night i thank god for staying beside me ,
i cant say that I'm fine' when sometimes i doubt myself and wonder if what i have build myself would take me far in life.
i cant deny that i find myself complaining about my physical features more than i should
i cant argue the fact that at times i love driving alone far and listen to music to get myself together,
i cant disregard the fact that Ive never been in love and that maybe i give up to fast in trying to make a relationship work;
But i have to admit what ever happens, or what ever i do, i will never lie to myself and pretend to be something im not. that like every person in this world i struggle to get myself together, to pay my bills, to find love, to make every day a better day, and because of the struggles i can say that one day i will be Independent, with a beautiful family, debts payed, but the struggles will remain.
struggles that allow me to enjoy my life, to better me, to make my life ' a little better'