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talking with jazzzy, about life and our experiences, i realized that theres so much going on around us without knowing. we realize it till we go trough a tough situation. we see people and assume they are happy, because when we're going trough tough moments we see everyone else happy but ourselfs. life goes on. but at the moment we feel as if the world just stopped for us. its ironic how life is, we see people going through worste things than us and say "damn, i though i went trought it all", but then you see others that go trough some struggles and give up, and you realize "how strong i am".

"we are not mature by age, we are mature by the experiences we face, and problems we fix"

"mistakes are followed by regrets"

i use to think regreting was for weak people, but now i see regrets as a form of learning trough a bad experience. its okay to regret, what isnt okay is to always live by that regret. regret is the consequence of a huge mistake, a mistake that changed your life like no other mistake has before. the best thing to do is, after regretting anction, is never making those mistakes again, to grow from them, move on, look back to them and smile. smile because you have the ability to see situation in a different perspective. be happy, because a lot of people cant look beyond regret. you're lucky, because if youre still standing on your two feet, you will not be defeteated by anyone or anything.

i cant sleep!!!

"everything happens for a reason" ...right? i use to always say it, just like many people do. i never thought i would really anylize it like i do now. its hard to say after an awful experience. when all your thoughts are followed with "what if's?". when "everything happens for a reason" may not make sense. when you keep trying to find that "reason". its harder when all you have is questions and no answers. i use to describe myself as an "optimistic" person, now i cant remember how to think positive. they say "time" heals, i say "strength" is what allows you to see the pain and understand that it may heal but scar would always be there. a scar that may be hurt again and would need treatment over and over. a scar that resembles a change of live, another opportunity. i never thought a second cance to live would be harder than death itself. its hard to smile again, when you remeber the people or things that made you smile are no longer there and will never be seen again. how do i make decision now? when all the decisions i made before lead me to this nightmare? i was always that person that likes to think twice about my actions before proceeding with my decision, and think about the consequences that might follow my actions. if theres one thing that ive learned, is to never make a quick decision. its okay to over think your options, than to face the consequences while making the decision. im not complaining about life. life is great!, but i do admit that in this perspective im weak. i seek for peace and strength. a peace that is going to help me when there is moments of thunder and storms. for strength so when that storm comes along , i can walk firmly under the thunder. faith i conserve. god, my family, and my girls are my strentgh. they are the reason i tell myself everyday "everything is going to be okay, you are strong daisy!"

-r.i.p karla & cindy- ******

-i miss those nights, acting retarded, jerking, karlita's rumba dance, screaming at random ppl, blowin the horn to ppl at the streets, bumping music, dancing in the car, singing outloud with our windows down, our aims every weekends "im too down girl, idk what to wear tho!", our buchanas & patron nights, our friendship "shots", and "chugs", our moments "picture girl!", our "vegas" trip!, our boy talks, beach days on day's off!, getting raspados, listening to the la prima practice english! "i have no fucking $!", our night when we were broke but "tooo down"!, our bday's that were celebrated for a week!! awww!period!!!!!

moments to remember.

vegas. 4th of july weekend. THE "CHUG" circle. all of us together. on a fun journey.

"a drive to the beach" we happen to always make the simplest things to the most exciting moments. ilovethem.

"car wash...." never thought they be this fun.

taking a different route in this world.

today i visited my girl alizey at the hospital. we analyzed our lifes and what we have learned through out this experiences. concluding that we have taken "life" for granted, by not appreciating what we have. sharing beautiful comments about our familys and those around us. discussing that we need to do the things we werent doing before, that we should of been doing, and all the things we yet need to accomplish. god is amazing.



my other girl "katia" today i seen her myspace page and she has a special phrase for me in her profile. this is my fav phrase that she said "Wouldn't trade her for anything in the world!I love you Hunn". because i wouldnt trade her for anything either! i love you baby!!& through this awful experience we still remain good friends, and im glad to have a friend like you!!!

august 2, 2009- swicthed lanes, swicthed lifes.

Entering the 110 fwy, is one of the nights ill never forget. august 2nd, 2009 was, by far, the worst nightmare i have ever experienced. the scene that "fox 11 news" calls: "2 Killed, 4 Injured in Rollover Crash", i call it "the lastnight were 'my girls' and i spend together. i lost a friend and a cousin, that were more like sisters; sisters that i never had. people assume i was either drinking and driving, texting, or speeding. honestly they're all wrong. i am not gonna lie, im known to be a crazy driver, but this night was different. i been known as the "designated driver", the one that picks and drops of her friends, the one who doesnt drink, the one that drove her friends to their graduation party, and to a night of fear, a night that they'll never forget. "NO!, i didnt drink that night, my phone was dead, my speed limit was below 70, and "yes" i switched lanes on a 'off ramp', i swear i didnt see the bump, i focused to much on my blind spot. after i got off the bump i heard a noise, thats when my wheel broke. the way my wheel broke is very shocking and unexplainable. why did i have 6 beautiful girls in my car? and no seatbelts? well that night...happen to be a night were "we all fit..." happened. its really, really hard to face this nightmare. asking myself everyday and everynight "why did i switch lanes, why didnt i just wait till the next exit?" unfortunately that answer would never be answered. 4 of us remain, 2 are gone, 4 of us in pain while 2 are in paradise. we miss them, their laughs, smiles, jokes, unique sayings...what can we do but to hope we one day will see them again. i bend my knees and ask for forgiveness, little by little im learning to forgive myslef. why did them have 2 have to go? its hard to understand this, and like someone told me "dont ever question god, he only knows why things happened when they do".

the last event we all attended..."

iQuote.

APPRECIATE THOSE YOU LIKE HAVING AROUND BECAUSE YOUR TIME MAY BE LIMITED AND YOU'LL BE LIVING BY A SLOGAN : "YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE TILL ITS GONE"

ONCE YOU LEARN TO ADMIT THAT YOU'RE WRONG AND UNDERSTAND YOUR WEAKNESSES YOU GAIN THE POWER TO GROW AND LEARN

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF BEFORE BELIEVING IN ANYONE ELSE BECAUSE ONCE YOU GAIN THE POWER TO PROVE YOURSLEF WRONG , NOBODY WILL EVER GAIN THE POWER OVER YOU!

an advice is something youve known all along but scared to do.

perhaps they hurt you, keep those around, allow them to see that they didnt destroy you! show them they've made you stronger. wear your fav smile and realize that your way better than them

im not a party girl, i just have to many friends to stay home on the weekends.....and weekdays! ;] dnt judge us! we are students, full time wrkers, and we deserve to have some fun ;]

problems happen so you can experience god, it doesnt mean hes not with you, because in this times is when hes right next to you!weak ppl say "im strong!" let him guide you, have courage, have faith!!

confidence and dignity is the best make up

in order for things to go the right way, you need to do the right thing! , learn how to forgive, be able to accept your mistakes, have the power to apologize,

YOU LEARN TO ADMIT THAT YOURE WRONG AND UNDERSTAND YOUR WEAKNESSES YOU GAIN THE POWER TO GROW AND LEARN!

i know my surroundings, i know my strenght, i know me! so dnt tell me what im capable of doin n not doing watch me and i will inspire you with my actions too!

-the way you kissed me, i know you missed me. when i left i know you wish you kept me. got you reminiscing "us" and the way we touched. perhaps we no longer talk, but this moments we shared will never leave our memories. sadly some people call it an "adventure", but me and you know ...it was more than that!

life is not about the places you go & the cars you drive, it is about the people you drive to those places. -for my ladies <3