scar.

scar: n. a mark left on the skin after a surface injury or wound has healed.


i tend to look at my scar from now and then, not because it hurts, but because i see how strong i became. a scar resembles pain, its there not to remind us of the pain we went trough, but to remind us that like the 'pain', everything heals. if you have a scar then you know exactly what i am talking about. for example, the scar was created from a scrape, a burn, or a serious injury; but that injury got healed. depending on how 'serious' the injury was, depends on the time it will take to heal. have you ever seen a scar that hasnt heal? experiences, problems tend to take the role of the 'scar' because they leave an injury in our hearts and lifes. it once hurted so much, and now that the scar is healed we look at it & say "i remember when it hurted me soo much". when we have a scar, we have to be careful to not hurt that scar again, because it can give us a stronger pain. sometimes it takes us longer to recover because some problems and experiences leave serious damage in us, but like the litle wounds, they heal too. TIME HEALS the worst injuries in our lifes and hearts. they say its not good to look at the past, but i like to look at the past from now on; it doesnt take me back into 'regret' but it allows me to see how far ive gone, and how now more than ever i have to be ready for the injuries(problems/situations) that are on my way. the situations that will cause a scar, but a scar that will heal and will remind me that although im full of scars, i havent gave up! :))

my personality outfit<3, all by me.

I WEAR DIGNITY AS MY MAKE UP,
FAITH AS MY COAT,
WISDOM AS MY JEANS,
CONFIDENCE AS MY BOOTS
& STRENGTH AS MY PERFUME!


If you don't value yourself, don't expect anyone to.

Accept the struggles,all the bad that has happened to you,because once you accept you can overcome all the negative in your past<3

In order to open a new door, one has to close the old one.


a smile can be deceiving but the eyes reflect beyond unwanted feelings.


If lives gives you a "dead end'',find another route, it means that road is no longer good,but dnt stop walking,or go back.keep walkin forward.

Death is an escape, life is war. You either rest or fight!


"I dnt need him2understand me,to be 'perfect',or to treat me like a 'princess'.I just need him to be stronger than me,to push me when I no longer can''

You decide if you smile or frown. If you dnt smile now, later on you will smile at the frowns you once had.


Life Is Full Of Decisions ,every 'bad' decision has its consequences, & one knows it before committing to it. you dnt jum off the bridge With NoIntention?


when being weak is not an option, being strong is an obligation. :)

When you die & live after, life would give you a clearer eye & mind.You will never be afraid again, because once in the past,you lost everything.

to remain strong is to walk on fire, my feet are burning & my legs are tired..but my faith keeps pushing me forward.<3

roads<3 more quotes by me! :)

we might all take different roads, but we will all meet at the same ending. therefore, make your journey a memorable one. appreciate what
you find along the way. learn how to move obstacles out of your way..carry along with you things you only need to help you through.


God doesn't work on yesterday.Tomorrow remember that today was that 'yesterday'. dnt look back to that day, instead make a better "today"!


True love is when you find it within yourself,not in another person. <3

Life is unpredictable,so dnt live with wonder. Live day by day,minute by minute, expecting anything&Be prepared to whatever comes to you.<3


Don't waste your time holdong grudges or causing "karma".it will come at is time,instead forgive them for their ignorance.HaveAhealthyHeart!


Live today, not as it was your last day, but as if someone told you "the people you love will be gone tomorrow".-appreciate those around you


give out compliments, you never know whos hungry for them. youll be surprised how you make someones day!


Life is hard,but if u remain strong,observing&learning youu will grow, and see the beauty behind all the struggles.

halloWEENIE

"FOR EVERY SITUATION GOD HAS A PLAN...IM STILL TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT THAT PLAN IS. AFTER EVERY SITUATION YOU GAIN STRENGTH, WISDOM & FAITH. IF YOU APPLY THIS ELEMENTS CORRECTLY INTO YOUR LIFE AND SITUATIONS, NO ONE & NOBODY WILL DEFEAT YOU!"

IT IS NOV 1, 2009. A NEW MONTH, A NEW MIND. 1:03 AM. TODAY THE TIME CHANGES, IN AN HOUR IT WILL BE 1:03 AM AGAIN!! , GOD GIVES US A FREE HOUR. SO I AM TAKING ADVANTAGE OF THE SITUATION AND SHARING SOME THOUGHTS.

SO I STAYED HOME ON HALLOWEEN NIGHT, DECIDED NOT TO GO OUT, FOR ETC REASONS.

MY FRIEND AIMED ME SAYING: "GO DRESS HOOCHIE AND PARTY LOL"
I MEAN, NO DISRESPECT TO ALL THE LADIES OUT THERE ENJOYING THIS NIGHT, BUT IM SO THANKFUL I STAYED HOME TONIGHT! BECAUSE INSTEAD OF PARTYING AND DRINKING, I SPENDED A NIGHT WITH MY MOM & HAD A GREAT CONVO WITH MY FRIEND KENIA!<3

"THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON" -& I STRONGLY AGREE.
BECAUSE TONIGHT I WILL BE SLEEPING WITH A SMILE IN MY FACE, HAPPY THAT I STAYED HOME. EXTREMELY THANKFUL THAT MY NIGHT ENDED THIS WAY.

SOMETIMES WE DONT NOTICE HOW THIS LITTLE SITUATIONS CHANGE OUR LIFE IN MANY WAYS.

"SEE RIGHT NOW WE ARE SITTING DOWN TALKING ABOUT GOD, INSTEAD OF BEING OUT ...DRUNK&PARTYING"

TO MY GIRLS, THE ONES WHO TOOK A BULLET FOR ME,(KENIA,ALIZEY,&KATIA):

"MY NIGHTS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME, IM NOT LOOKING OUT TO PARTY ANYMORE...YES, MAYBE IM "STILL YOUNG" AND I NEED TO HAVE "FUN" BUT, I CAN HONESTLY SAY...I ALREADY "HAD MY FUN"! I HAD MY UNFORGETTABLE NIGHTS, WITH UNFORGETTABLE FRIENDS, AND I WILL ALWAYS HAVE THOSE UNFORGETTABLE MOEMORIES! IM THANKFUL THAT GOD LENDED US CINDY & KARLA, OUR ANGELS, TO SHARE WITH US THOSE MEMORABLE NIGHTS! A LOT OF PEOPLE WILL NEVER KNOW THE FUN WE HAD, WE WERE THE BEST GROUP! GOD LENDED US THE MOST WONDERFUL ANGELS ONE COULD EVER ASK FOR!. WE LEARNED SO MUCH FROM THEM, AND YET THEY ARE STILL HELPING US LEARN. WE ARE STRONG GIRLS, BECAUSE WE ARE STILL BEIG GOOD, LIVING, WALING FIRMLY WITH A HEAVY LOAD IN OUR BACK, FALLING, TUMBLING, BUT PICKING OURSELVES UP. WE WILL GET TO OUR DESTINATION, TO OUR LORD, TO OUR ANGELS. WALKING THROUGH THE RIGHT PATH, LERNING APPRECIATE THE OBSTACLES THAT HAVE STAND IN OUR WAY TO GET US TO WHERE WE ARE NOW! MAYBE WE HAVE SEEN WHAT OTHERS HAVENT, OR SUFFERED A LIL MORE THAN OTHERS, BUT AT THE END WE WILL SHINE. WE WILL BE HAPPY, AND GLAD THAT GOD STILL HAS A PLAN FOR US!"

L I F E

no matter how much we complain about our circumstances & experiences things will not change to our favor,we have to be wise & strong and work around these "imperfections' learn from them & move on

strength, faith, wisdom. bible verses<333

2timothy1:7

"For god has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power love, and self-discipline"

1Timothy6:12

"Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called"

John14:27

"peace i leave with you;my peace i give you.I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid"

Psalms119:105

"your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path"

1Peter3:14

"But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. "do not fear what they fear; do not be frightened. take courage"

josh1:9

"have i not commanded you? be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged for the lord your god will be with you wherever you go"

John 15:13

"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends"

psalms34:18

"The lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit"

Prov3:5

"Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding"

Prov16:3

"Commit to the lord whatever you do, and your plans will suceed"

why am i still breathing?

tonight i got a txt from a friend, this friend isnt as close to me, we dont talk daily but she makes those "remarkable moments feel as she been there forever". she send me a text saying:

"im glad your still here with me, love you fea".

when i read this i smiled,and felt blessed. why blessed? because after my accident i thought i would never get this kind of love from anybody. theres times were i feel like i just want to be "invisible" like i let a lot of people down. although its been 2mos since my accident, i still cant believe this happened to me. i use to think things like this just happen to people that are ... i dnt even know the word to express what i thought. now i know that even the worst things can happen to those that are "good". i was a full time student & full time worker, with manners, respectful, honest, fun, outgoing, drugfree, & focused; its hard to believe that is truth, that this nightmare i went through is real! i ask myself:

"why am i still breathing?" why does god trust me so much? why did i get one of the hardest position in this scene?

like a great friend told me :

"maybe god knows that your the strongest one from us!, cuz honestly daisy i dont think i would be able to deal with it..."

but being "strong" is so hard!!!!! i wish every person that point & critize me, would put themselve in my position and see that it was never my intention to hurt anyone that its so hard to live with this pain. if god allowed me to go trough this.., i know he would help me, he cant leave me now...now that i need him most! people tell me that they "look up to me" because im "strong", little do they know i cry inside, and that im being "strong" because have no other option.when you go through moments of hardship is when you know how strong you are! like i say :

"strenght is like energy, if you dnt constantly ask for it,...you run out of it. & the best provider for this energy is god!"

god:

give me the strength that i need to go through this pain, guide me through the path that leads me to you & my angels, give me with the wisdom i need to make the "right" choices. fill me with your peave & love to share with those around me. forgive me for the mistakes ive done, and the "bad" thoughts that have came in mind. help me, i need you more than ever!

loving "me"

Tonight I realized how important it is to love yourself & How loving yourself allows you to respect yourself.


"what we deserve & not what we want"


its crazy how we go through experiences in life were want something or someone
so much we deal with situations or feelings we shouldn't,or deserve to go trough.
Sometimes because we learn to depend others before we learn to love ourselves.
In order to love someone, one shall always love theirselves first.
When we are not happy with ourselves, how do we allow others to make us happy?
We blind ourselves with dependency for others because we haven't being
Exposed to any other happiness. If you ever find yourself in the position where
you feel you need that one other person in your life in order to be happy then the
chances of you getting hurt will arise. Many of the times when one depends on
another idividual for happiness, that person will put up with anything just to
have them by their side. I have many friends that have gotten hurt,
because they weren't able to picture themselves without their bf or gf. They
thought they needed them, and they wouldn't be able to find anyone better.
How can you be with some one who doesn't treat you right? Or someone
Who is not willing to do the things you do for them? Its very dissapointing
to see beautiful girls cry because they are "in love" with a guy who treats them
like crap! Or vise versa, a guy who sheds tears for a girl, who he has done anything
And everything in his power to make her happy! A person who honestly doesn't
deserve one single tear from him or her. Like my mom always told me
"If he doesn't appreciate you, or he doesn't treat you right, let him go!
Set him free, because when you least expect it, someone will come and
Be thankful , because he didn't deserve you!" So if you ever find yourself
In a situation where you have done it all, and he or she doesn't appreciate it,
Let it go, because there might be someone out there hoping and waiting for
Someone to do those things for them. Like I always said it is what you deserve,
Not what you want. Because the things you want are sometimes the things
You dnt need! Love yourself! Respect yourself! No one is worth your tears!
You deserve the best! Don't put up with no ones crap! You dnt need anybody,
You were born alone! Also, always remember to live by this (my fav) :
"I want you but I dnt need you!"
You should have person on your side because you want them there,
Not because you need them. God, Family& friends you need!
A boyfriend/girlfriend should be optional. If they deserve the title,
Then give it to them. If they mess up or take you for granted, then let them go
Because in the end they never "deserved" you.

<3

Life is like a movie, while you are on "pause" in the longest&worst scene of your life, some are "fast fowarding" to the next scene like nothing, but eventually those who suffered & experienced tough situations, will get their "happy ending". I like to think of myself as a "main character" who never gave up.

inpirational words

i love reading inspirational words. & i found a couple of good inspirational words/phrases/quotes. google is the best when your tying to look for something you dont know is there....if you like it as much as i do, ...enjoy!

"...Life’s battles don’t always go To the stronger or faster man.But sooner or later, the man who winsIs the man who thinks he can."-C.W. Longeneck


"A fault once denied, is twice committed.”
French Proverb

“Write your injuries in dust, your benefits in marble.” Benjamin Franklin

No matter how wonderful our dreams, how noble our ideals, or how high our hopes, ultimately we need courage to make them a reality. Without action, it's as if they never existed.

quote to add.

talking with jazzzy, about life and our experiences, i realized that theres so much going on around us without knowing. we realize it till we go trough a tough situation. we see people and assume they are happy, because when we're going trough tough moments we see everyone else happy but ourselfs. life goes on. but at the moment we feel as if the world just stopped for us. its ironic how life is, we see people going through worste things than us and say "damn, i though i went trought it all", but then you see others that go trough some struggles and give up, and you realize "how strong i am".

"we are not mature by age, we are mature by the experiences we face, and problems we fix"

"mistakes are followed by regrets"

i use to think regreting was for weak people, but now i see regrets as a form of learning trough a bad experience. its okay to regret, what isnt okay is to always live by that regret. regret is the consequence of a huge mistake, a mistake that changed your life like no other mistake has before. the best thing to do is, after regretting anction, is never making those mistakes again, to grow from them, move on, look back to them and smile. smile because you have the ability to see situation in a different perspective. be happy, because a lot of people cant look beyond regret. you're lucky, because if youre still standing on your two feet, you will not be defeteated by anyone or anything.

i cant sleep!!!

"everything happens for a reason" ...right? i use to always say it, just like many people do. i never thought i would really anylize it like i do now. its hard to say after an awful experience. when all your thoughts are followed with "what if's?". when "everything happens for a reason" may not make sense. when you keep trying to find that "reason". its harder when all you have is questions and no answers. i use to describe myself as an "optimistic" person, now i cant remember how to think positive. they say "time" heals, i say "strength" is what allows you to see the pain and understand that it may heal but scar would always be there. a scar that may be hurt again and would need treatment over and over. a scar that resembles a change of live, another opportunity. i never thought a second cance to live would be harder than death itself. its hard to smile again, when you remeber the people or things that made you smile are no longer there and will never be seen again. how do i make decision now? when all the decisions i made before lead me to this nightmare? i was always that person that likes to think twice about my actions before proceeding with my decision, and think about the consequences that might follow my actions. if theres one thing that ive learned, is to never make a quick decision. its okay to over think your options, than to face the consequences while making the decision. im not complaining about life. life is great!, but i do admit that in this perspective im weak. i seek for peace and strength. a peace that is going to help me when there is moments of thunder and storms. for strength so when that storm comes along , i can walk firmly under the thunder. faith i conserve. god, my family, and my girls are my strentgh. they are the reason i tell myself everyday "everything is going to be okay, you are strong daisy!"

-r.i.p karla & cindy- ******

-i miss those nights, acting retarded, jerking, karlita's rumba dance, screaming at random ppl, blowin the horn to ppl at the streets, bumping music, dancing in the car, singing outloud with our windows down, our aims every weekends "im too down girl, idk what to wear tho!", our buchanas & patron nights, our friendship "shots", and "chugs", our moments "picture girl!", our "vegas" trip!, our boy talks, beach days on day's off!, getting raspados, listening to the la prima practice english! "i have no fucking $!", our night when we were broke but "tooo down"!, our bday's that were celebrated for a week!! awww!period!!!!!

moments to remember.

vegas. 4th of july weekend. THE "CHUG" circle. all of us together. on a fun journey.

"a drive to the beach" we happen to always make the simplest things to the most exciting moments. ilovethem.

"car wash...." never thought they be this fun.

taking a different route in this world.

today i visited my girl alizey at the hospital. we analyzed our lifes and what we have learned through out this experiences. concluding that we have taken "life" for granted, by not appreciating what we have. sharing beautiful comments about our familys and those around us. discussing that we need to do the things we werent doing before, that we should of been doing, and all the things we yet need to accomplish. god is amazing.



my other girl "katia" today i seen her myspace page and she has a special phrase for me in her profile. this is my fav phrase that she said "Wouldn't trade her for anything in the world!I love you Hunn". because i wouldnt trade her for anything either! i love you baby!!& through this awful experience we still remain good friends, and im glad to have a friend like you!!!

august 2, 2009- swicthed lanes, swicthed lifes.

Entering the 110 fwy, is one of the nights ill never forget. august 2nd, 2009 was, by far, the worst nightmare i have ever experienced. the scene that "fox 11 news" calls: "2 Killed, 4 Injured in Rollover Crash", i call it "the lastnight were 'my girls' and i spend together. i lost a friend and a cousin, that were more like sisters; sisters that i never had. people assume i was either drinking and driving, texting, or speeding. honestly they're all wrong. i am not gonna lie, im known to be a crazy driver, but this night was different. i been known as the "designated driver", the one that picks and drops of her friends, the one who doesnt drink, the one that drove her friends to their graduation party, and to a night of fear, a night that they'll never forget. "NO!, i didnt drink that night, my phone was dead, my speed limit was below 70, and "yes" i switched lanes on a 'off ramp', i swear i didnt see the bump, i focused to much on my blind spot. after i got off the bump i heard a noise, thats when my wheel broke. the way my wheel broke is very shocking and unexplainable. why did i have 6 beautiful girls in my car? and no seatbelts? well that night...happen to be a night were "we all fit..." happened. its really, really hard to face this nightmare. asking myself everyday and everynight "why did i switch lanes, why didnt i just wait till the next exit?" unfortunately that answer would never be answered. 4 of us remain, 2 are gone, 4 of us in pain while 2 are in paradise. we miss them, their laughs, smiles, jokes, unique sayings...what can we do but to hope we one day will see them again. i bend my knees and ask for forgiveness, little by little im learning to forgive myslef. why did them have 2 have to go? its hard to understand this, and like someone told me "dont ever question god, he only knows why things happened when they do".

the last event we all attended..."

iQuote.

APPRECIATE THOSE YOU LIKE HAVING AROUND BECAUSE YOUR TIME MAY BE LIMITED AND YOU'LL BE LIVING BY A SLOGAN : "YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE TILL ITS GONE"

ONCE YOU LEARN TO ADMIT THAT YOU'RE WRONG AND UNDERSTAND YOUR WEAKNESSES YOU GAIN THE POWER TO GROW AND LEARN

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF BEFORE BELIEVING IN ANYONE ELSE BECAUSE ONCE YOU GAIN THE POWER TO PROVE YOURSLEF WRONG , NOBODY WILL EVER GAIN THE POWER OVER YOU!

an advice is something youve known all along but scared to do.

perhaps they hurt you, keep those around, allow them to see that they didnt destroy you! show them they've made you stronger. wear your fav smile and realize that your way better than them

im not a party girl, i just have to many friends to stay home on the weekends.....and weekdays! ;] dnt judge us! we are students, full time wrkers, and we deserve to have some fun ;]

problems happen so you can experience god, it doesnt mean hes not with you, because in this times is when hes right next to you!weak ppl say "im strong!" let him guide you, have courage, have faith!!

confidence and dignity is the best make up

in order for things to go the right way, you need to do the right thing! , learn how to forgive, be able to accept your mistakes, have the power to apologize,

YOU LEARN TO ADMIT THAT YOURE WRONG AND UNDERSTAND YOUR WEAKNESSES YOU GAIN THE POWER TO GROW AND LEARN!

i know my surroundings, i know my strenght, i know me! so dnt tell me what im capable of doin n not doing watch me and i will inspire you with my actions too!

-the way you kissed me, i know you missed me. when i left i know you wish you kept me. got you reminiscing "us" and the way we touched. perhaps we no longer talk, but this moments we shared will never leave our memories. sadly some people call it an "adventure", but me and you know ...it was more than that!

life is not about the places you go & the cars you drive, it is about the people you drive to those places. -for my ladies <3