Entering the 110 fwy, is one of the nights ill never forget. august 2nd, 2009 was, by far, the worst nightmare i have ever experienced. the scene that "fox 11 news" calls: "2 Killed, 4 Injured in Rollover Crash", i call it "the lastnight were 'my girls' and i spend together. i lost a friend and a cousin, that were more like sisters; sisters that i never had. people assume i was either drinking and driving, texting, or speeding. honestly they're all wrong. i am not gonna lie, im known to be a crazy driver, but this night was different. i been known as the "designated driver", the one that picks and drops of her friends, the one who doesnt drink, the one that drove her friends to their graduation party, and to a night of fear, a night that they'll never forget. "NO!, i didnt drink that night, my phone was dead, my speed limit was below 70, and "yes" i switched lanes on a 'off ramp', i swear i didnt see the bump, i focused to much on my blind spot. after i got off the bump i heard a noise, thats when my wheel broke. the way my wheel broke is very shocking and unexplainable. why did i have 6 beautiful girls in my car? and no seatbelts? well that night...happen to be a night were "we all fit..." happened. its really, really hard to face this nightmare. asking myself everyday and everynight "why did i switch lanes, why didnt i just wait till the next exit?" unfortunately that answer would never be answered. 4 of us remain, 2 are gone, 4 of us in pain while 2 are in paradise. we miss them, their laughs, smiles, jokes, unique sayings...what can we do but to hope we one day will see them again. i bend my knees and ask for forgiveness, little by little im learning to forgive myslef. why did them have 2 have to go? its hard to understand this, and like someone told me "dont ever question god, he only knows why things happened when they do".
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